Deadeye356

back back back...

2009-05-22T21:57:00.002+08:00

5 months in the army already
close to a quarter of my term is served
not exactly enjoying my time in there but i guess the experience there is invaluable
moving on to the third stage of my ns term next monday
dreading it lolz
having gone through bmt and bslc
now its aisl!!!
armoured infantry section leader course
i feel the sian-ess even b4 the course begin
coz firstly its at sungei gedong!!!
super inaccesible and freaking ulu
secondly i heard the course is freaking xiong
thirdly the course is 20 weeks long!!!!
well i guess it beats being in aslc haha
pros and cons i guess
hopefully at armour still can book out friday night
till then

Tomorrow...

2009-01-27T22:08:00.002+08:00

Just as we must lose something to find it later,

Separations lead to meetings.

I know that after we had said "goodbye",

We will say "hello".

I want to lie on the green lawn

and play with the animals.

Today all sorts of good things happened

I hope tomorrow would be the same.

The evening sun is beautiful

I pray to the stars tomorrow will be an even better day

Why are you leaving?

Let's go home together

new year 2009

2008-12-31T17:44:00.002+08:00

few more hours and its the start of a brand new year
spent about 3 weeks in tekong already
imo ns life is so much better than studying
there may be lots tt disagree with tt notion haha
in tekong there are many times where for the moment u feel like giving up
times like during route marches with additional 8 to 10kg on u
but after enduring the gruelling task and u reflect upon the moemnt
there is this sense of statisfaction

anywayz 2009 is coming
so many things to do so little time left

post b4 enlistment...

2008-12-11T17:28:00.006+08:00

yup the title says it all
i'm enlisting tmr!!!!!
so excited and so nervous
dunno wat to expect from NS
haiz so fast...
this is the first time i am so looking forward to christmas
haha reason being i am able to book out then
anyway prom's last week :)
here are some pics...

and boo!

a pic of me with my hair still intact

by tmr this time...its all gone...

sobz..

so till then...

till chirstmas...

jingle bells jingle bells~

on a final note...

Somewhere there's someone who dreams of your smile,

And finds in your presence that life is worthwhile,

So when you are lonely, remember it's true.

Somebody, somewhere is thinking of you.

A's are almost over...

2008-11-17T21:05:00.002+08:00

What’s the point in ever trying to be happy when the very pursuit of happiness is what makes you miserable...

Singapore F1

2008-09-28T22:26:00.002+08:00

wow the very first singapore F1 night race is over
what a dramatic race this is
at least for ferrari and renault
even before the actual race, i told song leng tt massa was gg to win
and tt he strongly believes hamilton would win
well what a turn of events
whoever thought tt alonso who ended up 15th in pole position came in top
he was one of the fastest driver on singapore's circuit
but bad luck simply crept up to him during ytd qualifiying round 2 where his car failed him
some fuel prob or sth (ie his car was out of commission for the qualifiers)

and massa who was the hot fav of the night turned out to be a disaster
it seemed tt he was gg to lead all e way
tts when the mighty fell
somehow while re-fueling the pipe wasnt fully pulled out and he drove off
think some technical glitch i guess
but tts when all the drama began

alonso went on aggressively fighting his way thru from 15 all e way to first
he was also able to catch up all the way due to pitting in early
tt proved to be a very wise decision

the drama didnt end here
it was simply a bad night for ferrari
kimi, the other driver for them crashed when there's only 5 laps left to complete the circuit
my guess is tt he went in the turn a lil too fast + the bumpy roads

hamilton the other hot fav was consistent i guess
i wasnt very impressed with his performance though
nth special lolz

alonso has proved tt nth is impossible
the circuit was designed in a way tt it will be almost impossible to overtake
but tt guy did it overtaking 14 cars to claim champion of singapore's circuit
well i guess this f1 race was a timely arrival
it jolts me up with this message

"If you just did nothing because you thought it wouldn't help,

then you'd end up doing less than nothing,

for nothing would change and nothing would end."

lonely road

2008-08-11T22:02:00.004+08:00

another long weekend has passed

2 weeks left b4 study break

been actively out of my house during this long break

headed down east coast today and also on friday

missed national day to welcome my younger bro back from bali

in a nutshell accomplished little

finally i'm seeing how weak i am

as a student, as a living being

time and tide wait for no man

i, for one, is a person who emphasises too much on minor details

too much that it leads to neglecting the big picture

that for one is a major flaw

and tt always put me with loggerheads with my elder bro

his character is the kind of bo-chup attitude

during verbal 'battles' with him, he would always end it by saying

'well all these minor details can leave it to my secretary. For I am one who accomplishes big things.'

this brings to the point that sometimes ignorance is bliss

being too concerned with minor details can result in the downfall for a person

there are times where these things can turn out to be disturbing

i've got plenty to learn

to look afar, ahead

with the end in mind.

不值得

2008-08-01T20:08:00.002+08:00

here comes the first of the long weekend for monday's holiday
staff well-being day to be exact
well apparently they are well prepared to occupy our time with the many e learning modules we have to do
the flip side of a coin
the reality of life

today it seems to feel extremely nostalgic
had a rather reflective talk in the library along with sl and weilin
little snippets of my life in jc flashes across with each trigger
and i'm suddenly reminded of what sl told me over the span of 2-3 days

1. "I know how you hate of not knowing the truth."

how true it might have been, and all these while i thought i wouldn't be bothered
the truth brings about details, but it isn't always pleasant
the truth can be scary indeed
i've had my share of fear
the personal life deeply lived always expands into truth beyond itself

"All truths are easy to understand once they are discovered; the point is to discover them"

Galileo

2. "...不值得..."

all i have to say to this is 力不从心，狠不下心来，顺其自然

passive is the key

it sure helps in getting out of situation, and not implicate in other's life

Analogies

yes i sure do have fun with them, esp since sec 1
still rmb i wrote a speech, and included the line...

Let me be your lighthouse, and guide you through the stormy seas

went on to discuss the analogies to describe my emotional barrier i would call it

some examples we came out with

oxygen- might overlook it and deem non-existent, but essential for life

traffic light- without it, your whole world would come crashing down

lighthouse- same as above

watch- unknowingly losing oneself without it

model kit- stay by your bed, watching over you

poster- everywhere you turn, it would be there

anyway i know sl would definitely be reading it

so i stand by my view of the analogy of the oxygen

relevant, succinct and concised

for though it exists, i would want to overlook its importance

gundam dynames

2008-07-18T22:18:00.004+08:00

juz came back from watching dark knight
man it was cool
its truly amazing how the plot goes
and of course the developement of characters throughout the movie
best movie i ever watched so far
i think even Ironman and Wanted couldnt beat this
the joker was portrayed marvelously
definitely a must watch
wouldnt want to spoil the movie here

yep celebrated my annual event for the 18th year ytd
yep my bdae
many thanks to those who wished me
enjoyed myself thoroughly ytd
celebrated by
1. having a durian feast for 2 days
2. dinner at my favourite din tai fung restaurant
3. got my gift from elder bro -> a 1/100 gundam model
(fyi i got 1 of those every year, this is the third year lolz)

will let the pics do the talking

day 1 of durian feast

day 2

my mini cake

the gundams i collected so far (these are my collection)
there's still my younger bro's one not shown here

spent 3 freaking hours fixing this on thursday
well gave me a sense of satisfaction though
and yes i think this blog will go into hibernation soon
loads of work coming up...

whom can i turn to besides you

2008-07-10T21:53:00.003+08:00

I Turn To You
by Christina Aguilera

When I'm lost in the rain,
In your eyes I know I'll find the light
To light my way.
And when I'm scared,
And losing ground,
When my world is going crazy,
You can turn it all around.
And when I'm down you're there- pushing me to the top.
You're always there,
giving me all you've got.
For a shield from the storm,
For a friend, for a love
to keep me safe and warm
I turn to you.
For the strength to be strong,
For the will to carry on
For everything you do,for everything that's true
I turn to you.

When I lose the will to win,
I just reach for you and
I can reach the sky again.I can do anything
'Cause your love is so amazing,
'Cause your love inspires me.
And when I need a friend,
You're always on my side
Giving me faith
taking me through the night
For a shield from the storm,
For a friend, for a love
to keep me safe and warm
I turn to you.

For the strength to be strong,
For the will to carry on
For everything you do,
for everything that's true
I turn to you.

For the arms to be my shelter
through all the rain,
For truth that will never change,
For someone to lean on,
For a heart I can rely on through anything,
For that one who I can run to...
For a shield from the storm,
For a friend, for a love
to keep me safe and warm
I turn to you
For the strength to be strong,
For the will to carry on
For everything you do,for everything that's true
I turn to you.

For a shield from the storm,
For a friend, for a love
to keep me safe and warm
I turn to you.

For the strength to be strong,
For the will to carry on
For everything you do,for everything that's true
I turn to you.
I turn to you...

disoriented

2008-07-03T21:03:00.002+08:00

in a flash mid years are over
kinda forgot how most of the papers were like
but i guess reality would strike hard back at me when sch starts tmr

everybody has a limit, a ceiling, to what's acceptable and what's not
its a fine line, some may tend to ignore it, while some are cautious with it
just as 2 acquaintances, the line would rarely be crossed
but as 2 gets closer, the fine line would first become more obvious
after which it fades away slowly
not tt it had disappeared but was merely covered up
it had always existed but chose to ignore
and it would come a time when the line decides to show up again
the consequences could be quite undesirable

The most important things are the hardest to say

No one waits forever.

I'll be there to the very end, this is the promise I can make.

back to square one

2008-06-30T20:30:00.004+08:00

i'm trapped
trapped in this vicious world
one more paper and poof mid years are over
though not feeling the joy of it
why?
coz obviously the report card is very generous who thinks of only u and u and more u's
i am frustrated, tired and angry
frustrated due to chem paper tmr
tired becoz of the papers tt i took today (2 freaking 3 hour paper)
angry becoz i know i'm gonna flunk them all

these days i dread home
is not tt i hate them or anything
but its juz tt i feel so useless in the house
hearing of my brothers' achievements almost every other day
how one is scoring full marks for the test and scoring A's
and how i am juz expected to ONLY pass all while they have higher expectations
of how stupid i am when they asked how's the paper
i could only mutter "dunno" or "okay la"
i couldn't bear to answer them honestly
for i have lost it all

inferior i always am, gone with the wind

sony cybershot T70

2008-06-13T20:21:00.004+08:00

yes finally got my hands on a sony digital cam
well the specs arent tt fantastic
but for one its a touch screen cam
i'm happy with it :)
sleek and stylish

a week more to mid years
i'm so dead
ok this cam shall be my motivation to score
for it will be gone from my hands if there is any 'u's on my report vard this time round
darn 1 short week left
how true when ppl says time really flies
like the birds in the skies

week to remember

2008-06-06T17:48:00.005+08:00

almost 2 weeks has passed since the start of june hols

and i havent realli started on any work

seriously

i guess i was to distracted...

this week had been a particularly busy one so to speak

tuesday was mum's bdae

cant believe we went out from 7am to 7 plus pm

12 hours outside

quite a day

started tt day out by first heading the mustafar centre

yep to get everything my elder bro needed for his bangalore trip

which was like today?

the things there are relatively cheaper and a point to take note

tts my first time gg to mustafar

haha can u believe it

after getting all the stuff tt he needed we headed for breakfast

famous ah sio bah kut teh near farrer road

found the soup a tad too peppery and salty

didnt realli have much of it

4 ppl sharing 2 bowls

(my younger bro was mia the whole day. he was having some attachment thing at biopolis. not sure what it is but something to do with A*star)

yep for we are all awaiting the sumptous meal in the afternoon

headed down to cathay

see the pic below

yep we ate the set shown at the top left hand corner

free movie passes!!!

haha

as u can see in the background we are a bit too early for all the shops have not opened for business

the longevity peach buns

wasabi prawn -> this dish gave me a stinging rush up my head

it was just so spicy and delicious

desert of the day- yam ice-cream topped in pumpkin sauce

after lunch went to watch prince caspian with the free movie passes

was originally disinterested in the show for i had no freaking idea what was it all about

i was so lost at the beginning

forgive me for i did not read the novels nor catch the last movie of narnia

but well i would say at the end of the day i enjoyed it

from my point of view it seemed to be lord of the rings on a smaller scale

many would disagree with me with tt i guess

but while watching there are uncanny similarities between those 2

and i simply love the soundtracks they use for the movie

simply amazing

haha

yep to the third act for the show of the day

union farm restaurant

tts where we went for dinner

it was very near np and sim

haha it gave the kampong feel

and yes they are famous for their chicken wrapped with paper

look how ulu this place looks haha

tt concludes my mum's bdae

and now fast forward to today

woke up at freaking 3.33am

well luckily not 3.23am

was to send my bro off to bangalore

some student exchange thing but he's going there as some sort a mentor la

feeling so envious right now

eldder bro been on the plane like thrice

younger bro going on it in august for some science conference at bali

parents confirmed been on one b4

and i'm now the only one not been on it b4!!!

argh...

well who asked me to be so not academically inclined

on a final note

have been watching gundam wing

some thoughts came across my mind

but i guess i would organise my thoughts and blog abt it after mid yrs

yes i know its a relatively old anime which about 1.5 decades ago

but ya still enjoyed it though

have to double up or even triple up my revision speed

off and away

tmr will be the day i will...

2008-05-26T16:17:00.003+08:00

kinda of looking foward to tmr
nope not because of pre u sem ushering
who would if u have to simply usher the car to their lots and slack till who knows when
its the night tt makes me relatively excited
why?
coz there's some function at ritz carlton hotel tmr

holidays have officially started
trying to drown myself in work everyday now
2 reasons
1) i have nth else better to do for i am some sort barred from gg out to have fun
2) i dun want to work at mac ( mum said if i were to fail again this time i can quit school and go work at mac liao)
yup today's been fruitful
finished up all my chem hw

was playing table tennis on miniclip when tt sl disturbed me and made me lose the crucial point to win haha
its been quite some time i tried playing it on miniclip
reminded me about the time when we just finished our PSLE prelims
there are about a dozen of computers in the class
everybody was hogging it to play online games
i think we tried most of the miniclip games
at tt time
the word 'stress' wasn't even in my dictionary
i dun even think i rmb my prelim results at tt time
everyday was like play play and play
maybe tts the reason why i scored relatively bad for psle
not up to expectations
presently stress is like a obligate parasite
(fyi obligate parasite is a parasitic organism that cannot live independently of its host)
its always compound

and i haven't been able to make the decision
i need time

周杰伦- '轨迹'

我会发着呆然后忘记你

接着紧紧闭上眼

想着那一天会有人代替

让我不再想念你

我会发着呆然后微微笑

接着紧紧闭上眼

又想那一年你温柔的脸

在我忘记之前

心里的眼泪模糊了视线

你会看不见

change

2008-05-23T21:13:00.002+08:00

i dislike change
esp if things take a turn for the worse
many a times i was thrown into a situation i was unfamiliar in
it felt like being in a dark cold room
lonely, cold, fearful and helpless
the more i resist, the more negative situation turned out to be
why will i always be hiding at the corner
why am i so fearful of acknowledging what i have
why am i so resistant to simply believe and achieve
why is life like tt
why is MY life like tt

this phase of life is hurting me
i am so lost
should 've been more decisive
sometimes i simply envy those who acts without considering the consequences
at least they are able to follow their heart and act
unlike me

Secondhand Serenade -'Fall for You'

But hold your breathe

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you

Over again

Don't make me change my mind

Or I wont live to see another day

I swear it's true

Because a girl like you is impossible to find

Your impossible to find

blended with emotions

2008-05-21T20:48:00.002+08:00

my day started out bad
very bad
being hurled at with all the negative stuff
ridiculous and absolute absurd
couldnt bear it and left for sch early in the morning
sch today was VERY slack
no one was in the mood to study
all looking forward to the soccer final's of mjc vs vjc
juz before leaving sch...my heart almost skipped a beat or 2
i finally understand what it really meant to be stunned and frozen at the spot
at tt point i knew wat i wanted to do
but then my hands suddenly seemed to be a foreign part of my body
freaky man

yep and focusing on the match of mjc vs vjc finals
me jem and sl predicted tt mj would win
but we tried to predict the scores too
i said 2-1
sl said 3-2
jem said 3-1
in the end...obviously I am spot on
my intuition never fails me (ok maybe at least 70 percent of the time)
jem almost predicted right by the late attempt of a goal by mj
but somehow from our view the ball looked as if it was a goal
but suddenly bounced out
must be some small rock in the way of the ball la LOL
well congrats the mj soccer boys
u all deserved it
and vj played a good game too
it was an eye opener and definitely more exciting than last year

after the match tt sl pang seh me la
super fickle sia...
at first say want go back
then when hakim say want treat him then dun want go back
and after i had left he didnt go with them
haha but i must say i had a great time 'di-siaoing' him today
sian tmr pre u sem usher rehearsal
will be like the other time i guess
standing there like retarded fools
well who asked me signed up for it
kinda regretting it now
esp ytd haha

"Feelings are not supposed to be logical. Dangerous is the man who has rationalised his emotions."

holiday tmr

2008-05-18T15:41:00.002+08:00

i'm bored
don't feel like doing anything today
only completed chem tut
simply lacking the focus now
argh i have to stop this man
all these thoughts are making me so useless
i cant afford to lose this
to lose the battle for mye
have to at least pass all
hope the effort i put in reciprocate this time

revert time

2008-05-13T19:21:00.003+08:00

i've been pondering over this these 2 days

are u sure u will be a happier person if u are able to revert time?
i guess majority of the ppl would say yes
for they believe that going back to time can change their decision at tt point of time
either because they made it out of impulse, or that they simply would find their lives so much easier to handle if things work out their way
thus able to prevent what they regret today
true a decision can affect one's lifetime
however, nobody knows what is the right and wrong decisions
ppl would always assume that the pastures are always greener on the other side

as i would like to believe
going back to time wouldnt make one happier
true the end result might be different
but somehow nothing would have changed
coz there will always be implications on the other end of ur decision
one would probably end up regretting even more
"if only this happened..." or "if only this did not happen..."

but this is the way of life
life is full of regrets
the solution?
make the best of it and not dwell over whatever has happened

"Time is the coin of your life. It is the only coin you have, and only you can determine how it will be spent. Be careful lest you let other people spend it for you."
~Carl Sandberg

side tracking a bit yup sunday's mother's day
went out the whole day
things happened and my family was quite pissed
my mother was fuming with 'them'
and i thought blood was thicker than water
how wrong i was
well who cares abt 'them' now
we are so much better off without them
celebrated mother's day without the 'others'
one of the best mother's day ever
though i may not say it
luv u mum :)

Love vanquishes time. To lovers, a moment can be eternity, eternity can be the tick of a clock.

show hand???

2008-05-09T22:22:00.003+08:00

an excerpt from sl blog...
"...But if you're sure you do like him/her, then you should tell them and not be reserved. All rationale is asking you to show hand. But it IS hard to tell-all."

well i sure do disagree to a certain extent the first part of this sentence
at least at this point of time
told him tt there's no point telling
and he started laming me abt some point system crap
in my humble opinion
as long as there's joy and happiness tt can be found on the other party
its enough
what more can u give?
as in the situation tt we all are in now
we've practically got nothing that we can offer to the other half
except for such abstract things like 'eternal love', 'to grow old and die tgt' etc
as of now i truly believe that without a stable income, there will be no so-called 'happy ending'
rushing into one wouldnt be a wise choice
being reserved doesnt mean tt u cant express ur love for them
its just another way of expression
a more passive one
why must everything be so clear cut
grey areas...some things can be left unsaid
time is thus the crucial factor here

my command of the language isnt tt imba as song leng
there's so much to say but so difficult to express my thoughts in words
maybe i should get sl to translate my thoughts into words some time

the last samurai

2008-05-04T21:41:00.002+08:00

i should have been mugging for the past 3 hours
but no
i chose to watch the last samurai showed on channel 5
well there must still be these small enjoyment in life right
rather than staring at the notes when nothing's going in
wasn't too productive this weekend
and some things proved to be quite a headache
words are such powerful tools
they can either make or break a person
maybe tts the reason why i like to keep a low profile
coz i've seen it all
or at least i thought i had
sl would likely understand what i am saying here (i guess)
he's one of the few souls tt really understands
words are meant to be interpreted and analysed
and through tt a mis-step in the process would prove to be disastrous
and to overcome tt one must be magnaminous
one must be able to look through the barrier

and yes the above few sentences may prove to be weird
but they are meant to be looked into furthur if u get my drift
(like a mazda-rx7)

found this convo interesting while watching 'the last samurai'
Katsumoto: You believe a man can change his destiny?
Algren: I think a man does what he can, until his destiny is revealed.

enough said

apology

2008-05-02T23:02:00.002+08:00

ok firstly sorry to those who have been a victim of my lousy mood today
esp song leng hakim and the rest of the ppl in the class who have felt it
was feeling kinda moody, indifferent and to a certain extent angry
well who asked me to have thought tt everything would have worked out to perfection
sometimes things simply dun go ur way
at least all's well that ends well
feeling super sleepy now would update on this post some time later in the week

so again sorry
i'm simply not myself at least for the 2nd half of the day in sch
dun take offence
and iron man was definitely worth the rush from mj to vivo in less than an hour
in fact i timed. it took me 42min 37s from the moment i stepped out of mj to gvmax theatre at vivo :)
and gosh i made it in time for the adverts too haha
it started at 605

mayday

2008-05-01T16:39:00.002+08:00

today's mayday
or some would call it labour day
well somehow it had been the case today
of both labour and calling out for mayday(3x)
well firstly coz there's a whole pile of work for me to do
and i still hadnt completed them though its about evening now
i must keep up with the pace
if not
i would be left behind
wouldnt want tt
tt would be the time where i shout mayday mayday mayday
tgt with an SOS but at tt moment it will be too late

to sidetrack
i hadnt been thinking these days
somehow i felt like a nuisance
maybe i should juz keep my mouth shut
juz like the old times

blink of and eye

2008-04-25T20:17:00.002+08:00

one week gone
juz like tt
in a snap of a finger
this week was unexpectedly paced at a faster rate compared to others
somehow felt it this way
and yes the class getting 'lame'ified by the day
its spreading man
even i couldnt control it sometimes
guess song leng got the full blow of my lameness
tts why he lame now (literally as he had a minor sprain on his right ankle)
speaking of him
i simply enjoy gg to whitesands foodcourt with him
realli the perfect place to talk abt everything
and from today's session i came out with several conclusions

1. my predictions would be proven to be wrong in the short run and superficially
however, in the long run the equilibirum would have shifted to my stand
2. there might juz be someone whose personality is alike me in the class
3. i simply love to irritate sl esp now tt he may walk onto the path of no return

well to end off this post

十年之前
我不认识你
你不属于我
我们还是一样
陪在一个陌生人左右
走过渐渐熟悉的街头

十年之后
我们是朋友
还可以问候
只是那种温柔
再也找不到拥抱的理由
情人最后难免沦为朋友

jade at fullerton

2008-04-19T21:30:00.003+08:00

went to celebrate my bro 21st bdae in advance today
actual day is on monday, 21st april
but the pace of life in S'pore is too fast
i.e everybody would be too busy on tt day
went down to fullerton hotel today :)
wow i must say it really lived up to its reputation
its one of the best hotel i've ever stepped into
in terms of ambience, style, services, food and even the restrooms lolz
but of course there's a relatively more expensive price tag on it
but well its a special occasion
so its well worth it i guess

yupz below are some pics taken today

the bdae cake

presenting the gift(s) to my bro...haha like so formal

At Fullerton Jade restaurant

the range of desert tt they served

my fav--->the strawberry pudding

yep me and bro

and tts him turning 21 soon
to be exact 2 days later
on 21st april 2008

spent e whole day outside time to get back to my work
loads of hw to complete over e weekends

weirdo

2008-04-16T21:23:00.004+08:00

there's something wrong with me
a major problem
somehow i realised i don't respond the way tt my mind is thinking
i.e. my actions and my thinking are mutually exclusive
somehow its a reflex action i couldnt control it
eg like how i wanted to reply to a comment but i simply turned away
it simply irks ppl right
well life isnt perfect

like how i see things are going
if nothing's done to rectify the current situation
then be prepared for the worst

tk band 2008

2008-04-14T20:41:00.001+08:00

syf central judging 2008

2008-04-13T11:53:00.005+08:00

was syf central judging 2008 ytd

tk band managed to clinch a gold with honours

however, we lost the to deyi sec, for they got the best display outdoor band this year

i wouldnt want to type those cliched things about winning and losing

however one impt point to bring up

tk band did their best and gave their all

its juz a minor setback this year

i'm sure they will bounce back and ever more motivated to take back the title

u all will always be the best band on land!!!

and anywayz, i've been through syf 3 times alr

the first in 2004 where i was a councillor on probation

second was in 2006 when i stepped down

and thirdly, this year in 2008 where i went back as an ex-TKsian

well for each year there's a different feel

in '04, i was supposed to lead the cheer with the rest of the student leaders

and well i must say it wasn't tt bad and at least i felt enthusiastic about it

in '06, i enjoyed myself most, in the company of friends, and seeing how my juniors managed to hype out the crowd

however, this yr, it juz doesn't seem right

firstly a part of me was unmotivated to go

secondly the atmosphere was very very different

maybe becoz i was such a let down

simply hate this kind of feeling

well nevertheless u simply cant please everyone can u?

so heck with it :)

some pics of tk band during syf central judging 2008

entrance of TK band

formation of a plane

not sure of the formation but eyecatching isn't it

finale (see the 2 dragons?)

bands marching in awaiting for results

and on a side note

how i wished what i saw happened to me...

at tt point of time

it seemed to good to be true

off track

2008-04-09T21:53:00.002+08:00

i've been focusing too much on how we are similar
deluding myself how we are of "the same kind"
what a mistake
now tt i know
its not too late for me
i've not been myself lately
but maybe this is a transition change
again...

history is repeating itself again
my history
its the same as 2 years ago
and i dun really enjoy to be in tt kind of situation
who does?

Banging on your front door

My pride spilled on the floor

My hands and knees are bruised and now

I'm crawling back to you

Begging for a second chance

Are you gonna let me in?

I was running from the truth and now I'm crawling back to you

troubled

2008-04-06T19:58:00.003+08:00

for friday's match we lost
so out of competition
well its been quite an experience
however i haf to admit i didnt quite play my best
for we had lost the first 3 matches against ny
felt quite disheartened at tt point
but well all has ended
tts one commitment down

the past week hasnt been too pleasant for me
couldnt quite put the right words into place to describe it
things tt happened seem to be contradicting each other
i seriously don't know what is going on now
confused i am

am i juz sensitive or over sensitive???
i hope its the latter

anyway there's syf central judging for outdoor display band
this sat 12/04/08 at national stadium
go down and support tk band!!!
tk band- the best band on land
they have been bagging the best outdoor display band
for 10 years in 5 consecutive competitions
(coz takes place bi annually)
this will be the sixth competition
tk band shall do all proud once more
i'm sure of it
here's a vid on tk band 2006
enjoy

matches

2008-04-02T21:03:00.002+08:00

ongoing competitions for table tennis
so far won 2 lost 1
mjc vs ajc 0:5
mjc vs ijc 5:0
mjc vs tjc 3:2
mjc vs nyjc ??:??

friday playing against nyjc
wow this competiton really showed me the true meaning of never give up
for both the ij and tj match
my match tt is (doubles)
we were like on the losing end
but miraculously we pulled it thru
i realli dunno how sia
forgot entirely how i actually played
seriously
i onli remembered myself kept shouting
thinking back i found myself quite comical
anyway ya i am so sorry to gary (my doubles partner)
coz i always made so many silly mistakes during the games
then end up he like quite frustrated and stuff
but we managed to pull through :)
haha we managed to beat the odds
so lets juz work towards tt match vs nyjc

and had a call from derron
well its been a long time since i last met him
he's in guards now!!!
haha think he's very fit now
he never fails to cheer me up man
he's those sort of guys tt could make u forget whatever troubles tt u have
and laugh over the lives tt we are leading
man hopefully we would be able to meet up some time
truly missed him haha
sounds awfully gay
but who cares?
haha

yep and off to memorise my bio spa

the desired one

2008-03-29T19:57:00.002+08:00

你要的不是我
演唱:林俊杰

怎么能忘时间多长
你快乐吗想代替你回答
你知道吗走了好远
我才能去面对这份牵挂沉默伤悲

你要的不是我
心碎的失去轮廓
曾经给你的感动
只是情绪的波动
能给的不是我
放任你沉溺自由

掩饰不了我的笨拙
就连说话都会颤抖
我被遗忘在你遗忘的角落

anywayz...
i'm so grounded haha
well there goes my social life
from almost nothing to absolute nothing
well i brought this on myself
this will only be lifted till i proved my worth during mid yrs
till then

to the person i let down most

2008-03-27T19:58:00.003+08:00

i havent realli truly talked to him for a long time
i do see him everyday though
but i do not take much notice
and sadly to say
i broke most of my promises made to him
all i did was made empty promises and lies
countless of them
i've disappointed him
i've yet to prove to him that i am able to do it
to take control of my life
to achieve greatness
to achieve success
he's the most important person in my life
more important than my friends and relatives
to a certain extent my family
i could deceive the whole world but not him

well curious who he is???
here's my answer
the reflection i see in the mirror
myself

yes, and today i took a long hard look at myself
nope neither to see whether or not my hair was messy
nor whether to see a pimple on my face
nor to admire my handsome looking face (lolz)
i simply thought back
why am i acting the way i am now?
in which it led to my life being so messed up
is this the kind of results i wanted?
if not why didnt i do it right initially?
i was on the wrong track, starting on the wrong footing
am i even putting in the effort to maintain what i envisioned?
of myself, my dreams, ambitions and goals
whatever happened to them

i'm tearing now even as i type
i've been keeping things in me for too long
and today shall be the day where i let all my emotions out
for those who knows me
i'm one who wears a mask
not as in being a hypocrite
but as one with the protective barrier around me

ppl say life's short, enjoy it while u still can
but i finally do disagree with this saying
for tt is the lack of foresight
without any hardwork or effort made to maintain the certain goal one would want to achieve, the enjoyment is shortlived
i've experienced the above, but in a smaller scale
and have i learnt my lesson?
i realli hope i do

and lastly
i never should have done that
i never should have agreed
i never should have even thought about it
i should have seen it coming
i should have read the signs

i was such a fool

an analogy

2008-03-25T21:51:00.002+08:00

Love
is as if
that it’s like the fireworks during New Year celebrations.
They are pretty nice and colourful but they last only a short while,
burning themselves up in the process.
Also, the whole fireworks get old after a while when you see them every year.

am i juz so pessimistic or wat?
maybe this is wat i want myself to believe
to numb myself from everything...

this is going nowhere
for it ain't moved in the first place

the one has spoken

2008-03-24T20:21:00.002+08:00

haiz
the one has spoken
neo
mr neo tt is
haiz
well the gist of it is...
i did badly for math
well should've expected this to happen
even for other subjects
dead i am
for the time being
isn't it time to wake up to my senses???

and a note to song leng
dun think so much into it ya?
haha u know wat i mean...lolz

unexpected...

2008-03-23T10:06:00.004+08:00

well the break's coming to an end
block tests results are soon to be released
haiz could almost predict all e results
and there's freaking econs and chem tmr
both at e same time -.-
so which should i go...?
still deciding and hopefully there will be a change in time for chem
coz its almost impossible to change the time for econs lecture
geez

and yes i had quite the experience ytd
its so much different from what i had expected
or rather
its nothing like wat i had imagined
ytd was sort of a rare opportunity
it would be difficult i guess
to do the same thing in the future
hmm but yes this would one of the memories that would etch deeply in my mind

on a side note...

HAPPY B'DAE DAWN!!!

march blockies

2008-03-11T08:38:00.002+08:00

i know i've uploaded this pic b4 last year

but then may this be a reminder to me and u ppl out there

work hard study hard

in order to have the freedom to play hard

well gtg revise now

my my

my schedule is so packed

tmr friendly match with nanyang poly

argh...another day gone...

so so malu-ed

2008-03-05T15:16:00.002+08:00

on the way back home
i misunderstood and thus this resulted a joke
i made such a stupid comment/question
i was so malu-ed so embarassed tt i didnt know where to place my face now
luckily the only ppl who heard wat i said was dawn jem and naq at tt time
and probably the commuters aboard the bus
argh this teaches me one lesson...
never ever to think out loud when u are unsure of something
anyway found this song
can go watch her sing live at http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8EbYmMb4lR4&feature=related
very motivational song i guess
like it v much

One Moment In Time By Whitney Houston

Each day I live
I want to be a day to give
the best of me
I'm only one,
but not alone
My finest day
is yet unknown

I broke my heart
for every gain
To taste the sweet,
I faced the pain
I rise and fall,
Yet through it all
this much remains

I want one moment in time
When I'm more than I thought I could be
When all of my dreams
Are a heartbeat away
And the answers are all up to me

Give me one moment in time
When I'm racing with destiny
Then in that one moment of time
I will feel, I will feel eternity

I've lived to be the very best
I want it all, no time for less
I've laid the plans
Now lay the chance here in my hands

Give me one moment in time
When I'm more than I thought I could be
When all of my dreams
Are a heartbeat away
And the answers are all up to me

Give me one moment in time
When I'm racing with destiny
Then in that one moment of time
I will feel, I will feel eternity

You're a winner for a lifetime
If you seize that one moment in time
Make it shine

Give me one moment in time
When I'm more than I thought I could be
When all of my dreams
Are a heartbeat away
And the answers are all up to me

Give me one moment in time
When I'm racing with destiny
Then in that one moment of time
I will be, I will be, I will be free, I will be,I will be free

be afraid

2008-03-04T19:24:00.002+08:00

i havent been fulfilling my promises i made to myself
to name a few
i didnt do well or even pass all my tests
i didnt stay up late to study
i wasnt able to focus and steered away by my distractions
sigh
next week gp block test alr
following week all the other tests
and i havent prepared for all of them yet
what am i doing sia
argh!!!

and a side note
since u made up your choice
its time to move on with life
yes there's always the transition state
and the smile tt covers ur sadness
but above all tt
life's more than tt
friends academic and also the future tt cant be predicted

i am blogging all these in a rush haha so all the above might not make sense
ok i have to call those j1s who are in table tennis alr
till next time

Happy bdae Grandma

2008-03-02T18:01:00.005+08:00

today's grandma 80th bdae!!!
went there earlier to help out
there goes my revision for chem test
have to chiong for it tonight then
it was quite heartening
to see everybody gather again for a joyous occasion
esp when we didnt realli meet up during cny
it didnt matter tt we were celebrating at my uncle's place
though the place was relatively smaller
it was filled with laughter and joy
and as a matter of fact my uncle cooked those food by himself
i must say they are on par with those restaurants outside
though it was hard on him sweating and cooking away in the kitchen

all of us had changed so much
had difficulty recognising ppl haha

well below are some photos taken

my cousins eugene wendy and jessica

me my bro and cousins

my ahma and mostly the second generations

my ahma with grandchildren

the food my uncle whipped

there's more to come

and yes the traditional longevity peach
but we ordered a cake to be shaped like one
and tadah the results like tt
the above is a 3kg choc fudge cake!
it taste delicious
i was amazed how they are able to produce such a cake

well wouldnt be blogging for next few weeks i guess
block test coming
haiz must do well for it
must brush up on my foundation
but first things first
study for my upcoming chem test

lagging

2008-03-01T22:48:00.002+08:00

oh my... had so much difficulty in completing 2 chem tut today
chem periodicity and chem equilibrium
in a span of 4 hours
and have not realli completed them
my mind's juz so lagging by the day
think i getting more and more stupid
those single digit results from my tests are evidence
nothing's gg right these days
cant keep up this pace much longer
seeing how others are able to do well academically
i'm truly feeling inferior
i couldn't sleep last night

pondering upon the fact...
tt i am truly not putting in enough effort?
or simply the adopted studying strategy is wrong?
do i even have a strategy to start with?
7 more months of mugging
for 4 years of freedom
can i stand tall amidst the odds
why are ppl achieving those goals tt i hanker for effortlessly
while i'm here struggling to find a way out
yes i'm envious
my efforts are not reciprocated
so what's the point of continuing?
but if i do not
would i be able to sustain the living conditions i have now or even better?
would i be able to earn a living comfortably
or to work under others, to suffer in silence?

Can you see me, here I am

I need you like I needed you then

When I feel like giving up

I climb inside your heart I still find

You're my safest place to hide

dance concert

2008-02-29T20:19:00.003+08:00

went for mj very first dance concert
didnt regret gg at all
the performance was fabulous
esp those dances with naq in it!!!
haha ok being a bit biased here
but ya enjoyed the night
was worth every cent of the relatively expensive ticket

and so coincidentally the gals forgot to bring their cameras
and i ended up helping them taking photos...
with my 3.2 megapixel cam with carl zeiss optics nokia 6500s
lol
yup had so called dinner at the coffee club
with meg dawn cat b4 gg the concert
coz i was the onli one who ate a complete main dish
and the muddy mudpie they ordered is super sinful
should have taken a pic of it
it does taste nice though

pics b4 the concert

megan and dawn (dawn trying to claw meg haha...)

cat meg dawn

them again

meg being bullied (again...lol)

meg bo-chup dawn's strangling her

After the concert

the day ended off pretty well
with the exception tt i didnt have the time to revise for math test
could see the consequences of it when i did it today
neo's gonna kill me...this time
for sure

the heart

2008-02-27T21:41:00.002+08:00

our heart is simply so mysterious
its our source of life
its what keep us alive
all our life
we would be searching high and low

for our so called happiness, joy and love

through the many setbacks and obstacles
yes we filled it in with our emotions
however as the years goes
u will notice our heart
is simply like a bottomless pit
no matter how much you tried to fill
it will never reach the brim
you will never be satisfied
and thus you urge for more
and the whole vicious cycle occurs again

soiree

2008-02-23T10:20:00.009+08:00

well the past week had been an enjoyable one
esp on thursday when there was soiree
fyi it was like a mini concert in school
dick and song leng was tau pok-ed
haha i was kind enough not to tau pok sl
last week had realli been the best one i had
considering it had already been close to 2 month since the new year

some pics taken during soiree

one of the first few performances

me and sl

hakim and me

hakim dawn me

me and naq

shez and sl (sl doing the "weilin" pose)

jeremy andrew and dickson (Classroom Etiquettes)

jem singing

andrew and dick

alot of the photos tt i have taken are quite blur
must be due to the lighting

to side track a little
i juz watched episode 19 of gundam 00
the plot's getting more interesting...
and i liked how the converstation went at the last part of the episode

Lockon : " Setsuna, just answer me one more question. What will you do with Exia?"

Setsuna: " The eradication of war."

Lockon: " If I shoot you , you won't be able to do that any more."

Setsuna: " I don't care. As long as you take over the task and change this distorted world.
But as long as I live, I will fight.
Not as Soran Ibrahim, but as Celestial Being's Gundam Meister, Setsuna F. Seiei."

gundam 00 shows me the fact tt there is no straight forward answers in this world
its full of paradox and contradiction
however one has the ability to make tt choice
the choice tt can change one's life or even the world.

war zone

2008-02-19T17:47:00.002+08:00

hmm how should i put it
"You cannot discover new oceans unless you have the courage to lose sight of the shore"
here's a better understanding of it
well in my context on how i see things
new oceans meant ur future, the different paths tt lies ahead of u
and the shore refers to ur negative feelings, ur anger, sadness, frustration and jealousy
thus in a nutshell
it meant simply tt if u are able to overcome those negativity, and not get overly distracted and allow it to crush u
there's bound to be light at the end of the tunnel :)
the end result might just come in the most unexpected form

song leng's gonna laugh his head off after reading the para below
told him the gist of it

our class is soon turning into the warzone
(esp for the guys)
we are fighting a war, a battle here
we bared our hearts and souls
defenceless
and so
one by one we were shot and we fell
by the cupid's arrow
it seems to be a losing battle for now...

haha ok things may not be so serious
and yes i am in no position to judge
for i am juz an onlooker...

worried i am

2008-02-17T22:05:00.002+08:00

i'm worried
but i dunno how to go abt helping
what should i do in this kind of situation???
hmm...
feign ignorance?
tts quite my style but i would feel guilty if anything happens
how how how?
how now brown cow
dilemna

temper

2008-02-16T21:40:00.002+08:00

its been a while since i last blogged
schoolwork has been taking up the bulk of my time
well first things first
HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY TO DERRON TAN WEI SHENG!!!
MAY ALL UR DREAMS COM TRUE
MAY EVERY STAR OF EVERY NIGHT
BRING LOV N JOY 2 U
HAPPY B'DAY 2 U

yupyup and now abt my week
it hasnt been a smooth sailing one for sure
started out the week being absent from school for i was sick
and when i returned i realised i am so messed up
flunking tests unable to grasp basic concepts etc
i realised i was overly distracted
and because of tt i've been blaming it on others
i was disgruntled with the way they control my life
i felt tt i wouldnt be feeling so moody, full of confusion becoz of them
and i would have got past tt phase of life
or at least an experience of it
how can one learn a lesson b4 experiencing it first hand
so wat i would get hurt in the process
its how one learns right
i dunno...
i flared up again today over trivial matters
well becoz i am still feeling controlled
i'm trying to get over it
as a result i had little accomplishment in academics today
ok i am also not sure wth am i writing abt
but i do know wat i am unhappy abt
my policy
its nvr good to share too much

CNY 2008

2008-02-08T18:58:00.000+08:00

yep its the festive season again
this year's cny is seriously lacking something
its juz less lively
i still rmb the years where my paternal side extended family used to charter a bus and visit all our relatives...
i was still so young back then...
somehow tt isnt the case now
for the last 5 years
there's only visits to closer relatives
and we are done by early afternoon
then evening might watch a movie with my family
(normally a jack neo movie coz he normally releases his movie during cny...smart move!)
i rmb watching I Not Stupid 2 (2006) and Just Follow Law(2007)
and this year Ah Long Pte Ltd
haha one hilarious show la
but i seriously think there is a hidden message behind the show
just like how Homerun had
however i think tt the show is not suitable for younger children
but overall its quite a comedy
imagine a PG with a tad of sexual references and violence

nevertheless its still the time to relax and enjoy
well i'm glad i can finally get some goodnight's rest during this period of time
ok being a bit random here lol

and i still rmb how i was star struck last year during cny!!!
ya met christopher lee and fann wong at my block
terence cao at his restaurant
and edmund chen at some restaurant too
yup so sad this year never had the chance to meet more stars...
robyn said she met vincent ng on new year's eve
so lucky haha
anyway i'll let the pictures do the talking of my cny

my dad and mum

elder bro

me :)

younger bro

family photo 1

family photo 2

peng cai

peng cai + cute fish!

yup and tts my new bed!!!

its so much more comfortable and bigger than the old one

my old one is underneath

soon the rat race is going to begin

survival of the fittest

till then stay strong! :)

a karung guni experience

2008-02-02T19:05:00.001+08:00

went to skool early in the morning todae for cip
well more of a karung guni experience
its actually to collect old newspaper and old clothes from the block
and so we begun our day after slacking and eating our breakfast somewhere near elias mall
well me and song leng ate prata...
according to him...sinful it is lolz
yup and so me and song leng are supposedly to comb blocks 520 and 521
for precious treasures...the newspaper and clothes
and off we started our "mission"

tts 519 where choon rui and syu had to cover

the view from above...on the highest floor of block 521

sl tying up the newspaper
yup one very kind soul donated quite abit
and also gave us rafia strings to tie our load of newspapers
and even lent us a trolley!!!
it made our job so much easier thnx to them :)
they also gave us 2 cans of fizzy apple juice

with the white towel on him
sl realli looks like karung guni man here

yup the pile of treasures we obtained...and tts only half the loot

sl CIAD
(calling it a day)

syu trying to contact ppl...to ensure the lorry makes its way here

choon rui

and tts me awaiting the arrival for the lorry "patiently"...

ya the past week had been quite a rollercoaster ride
and these few days i'm acting very very weird
blurting out nonsensical nonsense haha
song leng would have experienced it first hand lolz
yup coz like i told him i'm in a transition state now
maybe a few days more and i'll be fine...
still quite disturbed though
the memory still haunts me

ya and my hair's super thick...i need a haircut!!!!
and i somehow got a new bed
will update on my bedroom for my next post if i have the time
ta dah...

chemistry for everyday life workshop

2008-02-01T21:03:00.000+08:00

went s'pore poly for a chem workshop todae
well its quite fun considering the hands on experiment we had
making a paper weight using polyester and also making aspirin
haha they didnt realli explained the concept behind all these though
juz briefly talked thru abt them and we are off to do the 2 experiment
and the person who brought us through these whole workshop is Dr Ong
he was the one who wrote the chem syallabus for our O levels!!!
everyone was like so shocked when he said that
yep below are some pics tt we took
looks like fun huh :)

dawn trying to take a pic with my phone and missed out andrew's face lol

yep and here's the proper shot me dawn and andrew

hehe hakim and nawal.... :X

pointing to nawal

hakim andrew me

the girls!!!

mine and dawn's paper weight!!! nice hor? and tt dawn spammed her paper weight with green beans...

the crystaline aspirin b4 suction filtration

dawn being so focused in filtering it

and thus being so happy with her filtered aspirin

and me too with my aspirin

our aspirin

yep we got to bring home the paper weight and aspirin

though the aspirin we got are labelled with "Do Not Eat"

yea had quite a great time during the workshop

well to dawn if u see this

haha thanks for persuading me to this workshop

i think its quite worth the time and money!!!

would have lose out if i hadnt grabbed this opportunity

and yes next week CNY alr!!!

so looking forward to it

finally a rest b4 the stress piles on again...

busy busy like a bee

2008-01-30T19:58:00.000+08:00

its onli half way thru the week and i'm feeling the stress alr
havent recovered from my flu
gah!
i was on the verge of recovering when my father too caught the flu bug and passed it on to me
but thanks to the existence extra strong strepsils i guess its under control now
and ya so much has happened in a span of 3 days
song leng asked me how i was feeling and i answered..."LOST!"
lost becoz i failed so badly for math consolidation which was supposedly easy
lost becoz there are so many things to do and so little time
lost becoz i no longer have the confidence in myself
and many more reasons to be lost...

ok shall not waste any more time here
there's bio test and chem spa trial tmr
hectic realli...

should i remain optimistic?
to sit back and see how it unfolds
Or should i juz go forth and heck with the conseqences?
in the situation i am in now...
its so difficult to make a decision

the scenery

2008-01-27T15:02:00.000+08:00

from song leng's blog (one of his 2 fantasies)

"The other is where I hold hands forever with my eyecandy and we share a blissful moment of intimacy (sorry, nothing sexual, just emotional closeness) on the highest floor of BLK 626 which I was at yesterday with Derek, where the view is really pretty."

yup he didnt have a pic of tt...so here it is...
haha
its on the 13th floor of block 626 and quite windy

well sometimes its good to have someone to think about
anytime anywhere
a sort of stress reliever i guess

compass

2008-01-24T21:59:00.001+08:00

today compass lesson was quite cool...
the personlity thingy
told my bro abt it
he said its part under NLP
fyi its neuro linguistic programming
check out wikipedia if u want to know more la
ya anyway its gd to know there's so many types of personality tests...
i still rmb DISC test when i took during sec 2 in council camp
its damn fun la
with mr pringles (the trainer looks like 1) and his explanation on the various personalities
sigh miss those times...

and now in jc another set of new personalities
haha
think this one more complex

there's so many tests coming next week!!!
and my weekends are like so burnt liao
sat road race then sunday got family gathering...
argh....how!!!!
ok being quite random today
will update probably a week later...
till then

try this test!

2008-01-19T20:23:00.000+08:00

did this test at http://world.doubutsu-uranai.com/

juz need put ur name and birthdate

and they will tell ur personality

quite accurate for me...i guess lolz!

u should try it too...

and this is my results

Derek

17/07/1990

i'm a purple sheep!!!

Purple Sheep wish relationships to be gentle.
You are modest and quiet, and will not oppose to other people's opinions.
Nevertheless, you have strong ego, and your personal security comes before anything else.
You are always cautious, and think highly of objectivity.
You do not act subjectively.
You tend to lack adventurous heart.
Because you don't move around much, you are diligent and have a lively imagination.
You have a very observant eye, and are quick on changes that occur in the society.
You have wide vision, and are a well-read person and well informed person.
You have high aspirations, and have rather huge dreams.
You would put in great effort to make your dreams come true.
You tend to be obstinate about the things you think are right.
This may unbalance your relationship with the others.
Have flexible heart, and you will get unexpected success.
You think highly of obligations and duty, but you also have good sense of humor.
If you be more concerned about cooperativeness, you can definitely be able to gain popularity. You are a well-informed man, so use that advantage as a backroom boy, and you will achieve great success.

wasted

2008-01-18T19:33:00.000+08:00

ok on my way home i was like thinking how i'm going to let out all the anger within me in this blog
but apparently, i'm not now
not becoz i'm no longer angry
but the very fact tt life's like tt
u have ur ups and ur downs
and its never smooth sailing
in life u're bound to encounter some annoying souls
but then
i guess they are in ur life for a reason
and maybe i also do have a part to play
coz of the very fact tt i am still barely coping with my studies
so the best solution is to work hard and ignore those unnecessary comments

A Winner goes through a problem
A Loser gets around it, and never gets pass it.

so live on well
人只要问心无愧，就无怨无悔
忍一时，风平浪静。
退一步，海阔天空！

all these thoughts came to me on my bus journey home this evening...

restrictions

2008-01-16T21:32:00.000+08:00

sometimes i do wonder
does man change the circumstance they are in
or does the circumstance cause a change a man's character?
why izzit so difficult for me to break free
give a a chance to prove myself
to prove u wrong
for u always assumed tt u are right
ur thoughts and actions
listening to other's experience is not the only way to learn from it
to experience by oneself is also an alternative way to learn
so why cant u juz let go for once
let me be part of this
and not only a silent observer

我虽然鞭体鳞伤，伤痕累累
但还愿在你身后默默的守着。

因为想的都是你，

一切的一切都值得。

at home

2008-01-15T10:21:00.001+08:00

sianz juz went to see doctor
now at home
didnt go school...

sick

2008-01-14T20:32:00.000+08:00

oh no i'm falling sick...
should i go school tmr...???
bad throat infection now...
argh...

the pace

2008-01-11T19:33:00.001+08:00

pace in j2 is seriously freaking fast
worse than it is in j1
juz had only a week of lessons and here i am, feeling bits of exhaustion already
seriously have to start on work seriously
to be self-disciplined
must learn from the mistakes and wrong decisions i made last year
and not repeat them
well i guess this year's the year to be selfish
selfish in the sense tt one would take priority of their own work
to give up some fun this year for the greater fun in years to come
wat ms koh said today realli struck me in the head
why would we want to waste 2 years in jc juz for having fun?

yes of course we can have fun but not at the expense of our studies
esp for me who's always lagging behind in terms of grades
maybe there are ppl who can get the best of both worlds
but i cant
dun want to risk it either

time is not on my side
not till after a lvl's
so will be blogging onli once a week or maybe even once fortnightly
who knows

Triton 6

2008-01-05T08:22:00.000+08:00

haha i'm here updating though i havent completed hw yet

lolz

anyway triton 6!!!

u guys are the best!

realli and also brings back memories during my pae period

when i was also in triton 6!!! haha wat coincidence

but i must admit, i am having more fun this time round

not becoz i'm an ogl but becoz of the ppl in triton 6!

they are so full of energy enthusiasm and vibrancy

i still remembered during mmm, everybody was running, cheering loudly

and not to mention cheering each other on

and i am so glad they all enjoyed themselves too

didnt even hear a word of complaint from them

to triton 6:

i'm sorry tt i'm not able to match all ur names to ur faces

but nonetheless i will recognise all of u as the best!!! :)

love u guys!

orientation

2008-01-03T22:38:00.000+08:00

well its end of day 2 of orientation
1 more day to go
wet n wild tmr
well too bad wouldnt be joining triton 6 in wnw coz wnw game ic
sad
haha had a wild time with them today for mmm
they are juz full of energy and vibrance la
super enthu
love them!
yea but i am super shag now
want to slp...
will update during the weekends i hope...
provided i complete all e holiday hw i have

"it doesnt matter whether i am forgotten or simply insignificant
my only wish for u is to be happy and contented
for tt is why i exist"

2008 approaching soon

2007-12-31T22:13:00.000+08:00

ok this is the last post of the year
1h 45min more b4 next year approaches
this year had been a year of change, and i believe its for the better
a new environment new friends
i am grateful for how 2007 had changed my life

my new year resolution for 2008:
to cherish each and one of my loved ones and leave no regrets behind

For last year's words belong to last year's language
And next year's words await another voice.
And to make an end is to make a beginning.
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

what is wrong...

2007-12-29T21:30:00.000+08:00

i am feeling so lost now
its always like tt
why must i follow wat u've planned out?
why cant i juz follow my heart to do what i want
this is absurd

a sentimental gift

2007-12-28T09:49:00.000+08:00

haha...nice rite???
i dunno whether u will see this or not but nonetheless
thank you huimin! haha like this face pin alot :)
she sent this by post along with a card la and i thought why the letter so bulky
initially thought inside must be some sweet or something
haiz after reading the card was like thinking how our lives would change next year
taking on diff paths in life now

2008 would now be another year of change...
things would be different
definitely

alvin and the chipmunks

2007-12-26T21:49:00.000+08:00

well went school a while for wet and while tryout finale
after tt went whitesands with song leng for abt an hour or two b4 catching the movie with my bro
haha had been quite a while i saw him lol
yea tok quite a lot in the library
haha quite conducive to tok crap

anyway yea headed to watch alvin and chipmunks with my bro
haha damn cute la and quite a nice show
though the storyline quite predictable...the interesting parts are those where they singing and also playing a fool haha

must watch...

bad service

2007-12-24T19:22:00.000+08:00

well would say my christmas eve night was met with many substandard service
but luckily, tt didnt dampened my mood for the festive season
went for dinner with my family at a particular restaurant
well they took our orders and after 20 minutes, only the soup came...
well tt isnt all
they told us tt 2 of our 4 sets tt we ordered are out of stock
we were like...wth!??!
one was a lobster set one was a fish set
and so my bro went to speak to the manager
well and so the rest of the food tt came was on the house
ie free
but we were actually quite upset by their service at tt time le
coz like the food came then no cutlery then also nvr serve us water
and also i think the manager didnt realise tt actually we had ordered 4 sets instead of the 1 set as stated in the initial receipt
i think he got a big shock we he saw the final one haha
maybe he regretted saying its on the house lol
well we dunno la but juz tt the christmas eve dinner was some how ruined
so we got down to ntuc buy some stuff, left the shopping mall
and headed down to a hawker centre to complete the dinner
obviously seeing how 5 ppl sharing only 2 sets of dinner
and here i am back home
if u are realli kaypoh abt where it is u can ask me haha

anyway to the rest of u guys out there
Merry X'mas!!!

emo???

2007-12-21T23:17:00.000+08:00

haha
something random
weilin thinks my posts are rather emo...
are they?
haha doesnt seem so to me
lolz
ok i got nth better to do...

cant wait till tmr for the big feast at suntec!

nth much...

2007-12-20T23:12:00.001+08:00

been a while since i updated
well probably becoz my life's kinda dead these days
maybe with the exception of playing badminton with my elder bro at safra
well still lost to him after all these years haha
it was a close fight nonetheless
won only 1 out of 5 lolz
it must be the lighting haha
its winter solstice festival this saturday
traditionally its a time for family to get together
planning to go chongqing hotpot at suntec
well been there once, the food's of quality,(duh!) considering the price
holiday's have been full of up and down for me
it always have
leads me back to think when i'm sec 3...where so many things happen

well at least now i am not burdened by any
haha except for the very fact tt the impending year to come
been thru the O's...
now the A's
can i ever manage it?

damn and i am feeling so so so inferior now
juz had my younger bro to solve one of the questions which i was stucked at
gah!
well was thankful for the help but then...
haiz
yes the envy
whenever i bring up this topic ppl always tell me
"u're better at something" or words like tt
i guess those words are of no meaning to me

maybe tts why i am so bad tempered these few weeks
maybe tts why i always flare up over trivals
becoz i wasnt satisfied
not with them but with myself
my own expectations

dun understand

2007-12-15T19:13:00.000+08:00

why?
the nightmare begins to haunt me once more
i thought all was fine, it was over
i was wrong
how could i juz assumed?
should have asked while i had the chance
hate this
i simply cant understand
thinking about it will only make my life more miserable
or maybe everyone's kept in the dark

well would only know in the following days to come...
time will tell...
as always

bio...a disaster

2007-12-12T23:26:00.000+08:00

bio hazard?
i think bio=hazard
had a lot of difficulty in bio
both the understanding part and also the hw part
there's juz too much application qns
dun even know whether i'm rite even with the notes beside me
i think i am juz writing crap on my foolscap paper la
sigh
i'm actually quite fed up doing bio
other subjects still ok la...at least there's the basics to fall on to work out the prob
but bio
wat formulas? wat rules to follow?
nil zilch zero kosong nought
die la...

holidays coming to an end...
are my dreams too?
my mind thinks too much sometimes
ok most of the time...esp when i'm studying
grr...
juz wander off into my world...
the world which i desire
the world which will never materialise
simply too far off
i have neither the will nor strength to face it

slp

2007-12-10T23:02:00.000+08:00

life juz so dull these days for me
rainy weathers, books, notes everywhere sigh...
hasnt been in a very good mood these days
and i'm juz so bored...got nth better to post also

anyway haha weilin's suffering from insomnia since the chalet
hoped the music i sent to u helped
will see its effect by tmr
haha
its scary thinking tt u are so tired but when u lie on ur bed...u cant get to slp
hope u can finally get a good nite's rest :)

and i think witch yoo hee is quite a nice show
ok maybe much better than some taiwan idol dramas i guess...
the k wave is here......

wondering again...

2007-12-06T18:45:00.000+08:00

the uncertainties
its so scary
can either make or break a person
it can either lead to one being so fortunate, thankful
or it could end up like a monster devouring ur conscience
i'm juz too afraid
watching the show happen and i'm not part of it

if only i had the freedom...

class chalet/bbq

2007-12-05T18:32:00.000+08:00

yea this is my 100th post
haha took almost a year just for 100 posts
aniwae class chalet was frm 3-5 dec
but a pity i couldnt stay over
only able to go for the bbq
but tts better than nothing la

was quite shocked with something tt huimin said
tt made me and weilin feel so disgusted
impression of the 2 ppl in question dropped greatly
but haha i am still doubtful

anyway below are the pics taken during bbq

me and weilin (she trying to act tall onli)

haha she still shorter

me and huimin (u will be missed)

the 3 of us

the cuties

the econs ppl in 305(jay's holding on to a $20 bill)

me and song leng (best buddies)

take a look at the snakes (song leng showing off his biceps la)

the battle of the... jedi???

haha and i'm the referee

a year juz passed like tt

made great friends, forged strong bonds

but still there are regrets over the year

but i realli enjoy every moment

trust me these memories are precious to me

and unforgettable

esp u

Time isn't what makes a friendship last...It's love and devotion that keeps the tie between souls.

selling flowers

2007-12-03T11:50:00.000+08:00

yesterday was such a long day
was out from 8 am to 10pm
for wat...to do cip
selling flowers for world aids day for ttsh

haha song leng pang seh never come lolz
so in the end me hui min and yun zhi went toa payoh to sell those flowers
we were given 9 bundles to sell
which is about 450 stalks, 2 bucks each
we were targetting toddlers to plead their parents to buy for them haha
sales of it was quite average la but was chased away few times by security
coz they say tt part of their building then cannot sell etc...
officially we sold from 10 to 6
but we started slacking after lunch lolz
tired and also still being chased away after we changed location

the slackers haha

so we started to sit down eat free ice cream drink bubble tea and tok crap
and actually counted the number of flowers left
i guess we sold abt 150 stalks of flowers(achievement?)
headed back to novena and then have to bring the flowers back to the centre
thnks huimin for following and carrying those flowers even though u nd not
would be super bored without u and the topic of mothers haha
think was officially released at 730
after tt headed to novena ate dinner at Han's
was so full thanks to hui min unwanted mango cake+vegetable la
headed home after tt
had a hard time finding the bus stop for bus 5
though hui min took the bus a few times le she still cant rmb exactly where the bus stop is
walked to 3 diff bus stops b4 reaching the right one
and night made the whole place looked so ulu
and i still think there is a nearer bus stop from novena
nevertheless i came home at exactly 10pm

wat a day
but i guess its a good experience for me for i have never worked b4
can see the diff sides of human nature

truth

2007-12-01T20:11:00.000+08:00

sometimes i juz do want to hear it from u
the truth, the incident, the past
yes i may not ask, but deep down, how i yearn to hear it from u
u left me hanging, feeling all the more confused

Nothing is easier than self-deceit. For what each man wishes, that he also believes to be true.

messed up

2007-11-30T22:04:00.000+08:00

dunno wat i've been thinking these days
kept daydreaming, thinking about wat would happen if the impossible came possible
wat kind of lives would we lead, and how others would look at us
those thoughts realli kept me occupied
since i have nth to do too haha
haiz...the same 2 words
"if only..."

开心就好
this 4 words suddenly popped up in my head while walking to mj today
and these 4 words spoilt my beautiful daydream
but how izzit possible to do wat one thinks tt will bring joy to oneself and not face objections
there are juz too many factors to take into consideration
maybe some people can...
but for now, i still lack the courage to stand up against the oppositions
may the time come...

Alex Kobrin piano recital

2007-11-28T23:06:00.000+08:00

ok call me sua ku or wat but this is my first time going to a piano recital haha
was quite an experience i guessimagine listening to symphony92.4 in the esplanade concert hall plus the person there playing
this event was held by citigold i think
haha so no nd pay for the tickets la
there were refreshements given b4 the concert as written on the programme
but trust me it wasnt light refreshements as stated
the food were of quality and u can see bottles of wine opened juz for this event
but tt wasnt the highlight of the event lolz

the pianist played 3 LOOOOOOOOOOONNNNNNNNG pieces
haha the first 2 were quite average la...didnt enjoy it as much as the last one
during the last piece, many random thoughts juz came to my mind
i was lost in my train of thoughts with the music playing in the background
haha

and i still dun understand something
during piano recitals why the person finish one piece left the stage then back again
then at the end left the stage then back again think about 3 times?
haha if anyone knows the reason tell me k...

photo taken at the event given to us as souvenir (younger bro not inside but @home)

back!

2007-11-25T21:03:00.000+08:00

ah home sweet home
back from ogl camp
was quite alright but maybe not up to what i had initially expcted from the camp
food was sucky etc etc
but overall, i guess its a great experience
made new frenz have fun tgt walking endlessly

i had been thinking during this camp abt a choice made by me
and i guess i am regretting it now
haha too late for tt now
choices have consequences
juz have to bear with it and face it

damn have to go back to school tmr to count the flowers for the streetsales
dun feel like it
why did i even get myself into this kind of things
so troublesome
tt shows sometimes taking the initiative isnt always a good thing
gah...think my dec holidays would also be filled with things like this
there goes the academics again!

i hate restrictions
too many of it now
argh...saw this coming if i had not gotten the desired grades
but i guess i juz let it happen
and now look
i am not even sure whether i can even hang out with frenz during the last month of the year
not to mention the class chalet
the possiblity of not going is high
damn damn sad
gah why must it always happen to me

tmr...

2007-11-22T20:24:00.000+08:00

its ogl camp tmr
till sunday
guess this camp will mark the end of my holidays
wa... the council so last minute one...at first wnw say highlighted logistics then nd buy
the initial doc dun hav
then they upload edited one onli today
where got ppl every minute go check one
then recieved call onli at 7 plus like tt say nd get
lucky my house there got sell bars of soap...lolz
better not happen the next time
or i'll...
decide wat to do if tt happens

should start packing now
till i come back on sunday
ciao

Voicing out

2007-11-21T22:30:00.000+08:00

When u truly love yourself, you get the voice inside that says,'i'm okay just as i am.'
well i guess tts wat most ppl would say but wouldnt think of it the same way
for the above statement to be true, u have to truly believe.
and i am one of the many who have yet to truly understand the essence of tt very sentence
how would u be okay as who u r?
there are often moments where we tell ourselves 'argh i should have done this' or 'if only...'
the times tt we yearn for more power
dun mind me but i have to use this as an avenue to voice out my thoughts...

had been reading the book "Believe and Achieve!" by Paul Hanna
yes wateva he wrote and those life examples he used we very motivational and proved his points just right
however, there are juz too many doubts in my mind after reading tt book
can i truly believe in those tools, techniques?
to learn from the ppl who had already experienced this sort of situation?
i believe i have a hundred and one questions at the back of my mind now
ok maybe not so many

shall come to a close and conclusion to all my doubts by the end of this week
haha shall make use of the ogl camp to think abt all these
looking forward to the camp, hopefully it would be a fun one

Believe and Achieve

2007-11-20T20:32:00.000+08:00

"Don't tell a person your problem unless he or she is directly related to ur solution."
read this quote from a book recently.
the author's rationale in stating this was tt by sharing ur probs with others, they would somehow or somewat bring up this topic be it weeks or months or even years later

the above quote gave me a jolt when i first read it
after reading the whole chapter on this topic, i realised tt i have been telling anyone who listened how badly i was doing in my academics, my life...
and expecting them to cheer me up.
by telling ppl these, i am limiting myself from stretching, reaching the peak
wat the author said made sense.

however, i struggled with this thought for a while
coz how can one keep everything in their own heart when facing a prob
esp if its a major one or relationship wise...
its impossible
one would explode
like how i would if not for frenz like song leng and this very blog

couldnt come to a conclusion on this now
might take some time to ponder over this question
to share or not to share

and also another question to ponder over the weekends
is everyone realli diff and tt everyone is gd at at least something?
haha sry huimin i think i am doubting tt...

THE MAN IN THE MIRROR

2007-11-19T18:35:00.000+08:00

If you get what you want in your struggle for self
And the world makes you king for a day,
Just go to a mirror and look at yourself
And see what THAT man has to say.

For it isn’t your father or mother or wife
Who judgement upon you must pass,
The fellow whose verdict counts most in your life
Is the one staring back from the glass.

He's the fellow to please, never mind all the rest
For he's with you clear upto the end,
And you've passed your most dangerous difficult test
If the man in the glass is your friend.

You may fool the whole world down the pathway of years
And get pats on the back as you pass,
But your final reward will be heartache and tears
If you've cheated the man in the glass!

the above is a poem i found...
how this brings back memories 3 years ago...
looking at myself, empty promises made
anyway for those who still dun understand...
the glass as referred in the poem is mirror

Envy

2007-11-18T08:14:00.000+08:00

Envy is an emotion that "occurs when a person lacks another’s superior quality, achievement, or possession and either desires it or wishes that the other lacked it"
and yes i'm feeling so much of tt lately
ok maybe this week
this is due to the very fact tt both my brothers are doing so well in their academics while i m struggling with the pathetic results i got

my elder bro went to SMU to get matriculated and was informed he will be taking a double degree course

my younger bro on the other hand, was so busy in the last few weeks with some research attachment with A*Star
and also heard got some more major ones coming along next year i guess...
no matter its those high profile ones...

and me...only staring at the crappy, atrocious, third-rate, horrible and pathetic results
i've always told myself tt i wanted to make a difference
but each time i went in the exam hall to prove myself, the results always turns out to be far from satisfaction
and tts partly the reason why i cant enjoy the company of frenz this holiday...
i often ask myself, izzit tt i did not put in enough effort, as compared to others, esp my bros?
maybe till now i dun have the answer
coz each time i thought i was so prepared, the results show otherwise
and often get the feeling tt no matter how hard i tried, it still doesnt matter
coz at the end of the day, nobody would believe tt i did my best
maybe its got to do with impression and expectations
"Having the potential to do better..."
tired of hearing this

i wouldn't say i am a complete failure
there are many things tt i should be satisfied abt
but still to put one in comparison with the same condition, environment, and every other thing
its juz demoralising
yes i do know tt to learn from their strengths
easier said than done
inferior i am

人比人气死人

Beowulf

2007-11-14T21:12:00.000+08:00

watched beowulf yesterday with my bro
wow i must say its an awesome film, esp for one that is digitalised
the effects are looks so real
and i guess its nc16 for a reason though haha
the scenes he was fighting the demons...absolutely cool!
ok maybe tts juz my personal perception
and Grendal (one of the demon) looks so much like an overgrown gollum from LOTR
and Beowulf ripped his hand off...wow! haha sounds sadistic
this movie brings about the other side of human nature
no human's perfect
the world is filled lust greed desire for wealth, glory and power
its a vicious cycle
no one would be able to stop it
unless one's willpower is strong enough, and thus able to tell right from wrong
"sins of the father"
tts the gist of the story
haha wont spoil it for ppl who havent watched it yet!
but think it is worth the 8 bucks to watch it
though i got the tickets free haha
must watch!
dun mind watching again

anyway i am feeling so much better now...
thanks to song leng haha...
i never thought there would be a day tt i told u so much haha
but i guess the day has arrived...
haha but dun make me regret it lolz
thanks buddy for being there for me
and also for today's workout
i know i've been a burden for u today...unable to do ur full workout

showdown at j1 bash

2007-11-12T14:24:00.000+08:00

tonight's j1 bash at Plush!
hmm wonder how it will turn out?

anyway i realised i m so foolish
didnt check out the truth and jumped to conclusion
how stupid can i be!
juz because of a number made all the difference!
wasted energy thinking of wats gonna happen and why it happened
when in the first place, nothing happened at all
hmm...how to reflect on my behaviour these days...
have been rather odd

anyway cant wait till night time...

trance all again...

2007-11-11T20:20:00.000+08:00

this is the second time in the year i m feeling like this
in a trance like state
heart beating so deeply, as if suffocating
ppl do say once bitten, twice shy
but why?
why am i gg thru all these again?
its my choice, my decision
but why did i chose to go down this road, this road full of deception and heartbreaks
i was the cause of the state i am in now
why didnt i see it coming?
why should i care in the first place...
so frustrated, so confused
i need a break from the world

yay finally...

2007-11-07T17:02:00.000+08:00

and yes today marks the end of pw after compiling the GPF and handing it in
finally...
anyway guess wat?
wat a coincidence la meeting khia peng at tampines interchange on my way back from ikea
and u r rite...its been a long time since we last met!
sigh time juz passes so fast
another year juz zoomed past

thanks for everything

2007-10-31T10:25:00.000+08:00

thanx huimin for the pillow!
love it alot...

Friends are an integral part of life, but every friend you have must live life at their own pace. When the time comes & they leave u, there is no need to get upset over their parting. But it hurts nonetheless and we are sad nonetheless, but we hold them in our hearts forever. Always cherish the joy, laughter, memories and love that they have brought into ur lives. Always rmb them with a warm smile for what they have given u...

Never gone (Backstreet Boys)

The things we did, the things we said
Keep comin' back in me and make me smile again
You showed me how to face the truth
Everything that's good in me I owe to you
Though the distance that's between us
Now may seem to be too farIt will never separate us
Deep inside, I know you are

Chorus:
Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close, everyday
Every step along the way
Even though for now we've got to say goodbye
I know you would be forever in my life (yeah)
Never gone
No, no, no, no

I walk along these empty streets
There is not a second you're not here with me
The love you gave, the grace you've shown
Will always give me strength and be my cornerstone

(Somehow)somehow you found a way
To see the best I have in me
As long as time goes on
I swear to you that you will be

Chorus:
Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close (always close), everyday (everyday yeah)
Every step along the way
Even though for now we've got to say goodbye
I know you would be forever in my life (in my life, yeah)

Never gone (gone from me)
If there's one thing I believe (I believe)
I will see you somewhere down the road again
(I will see you somewhere, somewhere, somewhere, somewhere)

(Never gone) Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close (always close, always close), everyday (everyday, everyday)
Every step along the way
Even though for now we've got to say goodbye (yeah, yeah)
I know you would be forever in my life

Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are (in my heart is where you are)
Always close (always close), everyday (everyday)
Every step along the way

Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are

whats goin' on?

2007-10-28T19:42:00.000+08:00

ok...officially advanced...have to work harder next year...
havent been myself lately...
so many things are gonna take a turn...nothing's going to be the same again
the environment, the atmosphere would be so different
its soon going to be 2008
and i believe that 2007 was realli a wonderful year for me.
believe me, i didnt have so much fun when i was in primary or sec skool
esp with the company of ppl in my class 07s305
to this note, i would now like to type a short note to my pillars of support in mj
Pillar 1 Song Leng
yeap, u knew u would be in this list don't u...lolz
ur very existence in mj never fails to brighten my dull days
thanks for all ur advice and encouragement...

Pillar 2 Hakim
u know at times i do think u are more emo than andrew...
u have been a great companion, and also do love ur star wars comics!

Pillar 3 Weilin
haha this may be unexpected... but yea u r juz full of nonsense...
and thanks to u, pw isn't tt bad after all...with u keep toking to andrew's koi haha...

Pillar 4 Hui min
thanks for those words of encouragements
they realli meant a lot...
its realli sad to see u go
u will be one fren i will never forget...u can count on it

Life's like tt, ppl come and go but at the end of the day, only true friends remain by ur side...

a bad day

2007-10-19T22:14:00.000+08:00

was a very stressful day for me today
thinking tt the wr was almost perfect my grp met up and submitted to ms koh
to our very horror we realised tt for one for the showcasing there is a major part we had overlooked--> did not refer to our tables in the wr
and it seems the weather wasnt too kind
it rained heavily
luckily all matters was solved thanks to my trusty printer...though slow like a tortoise..
had to rush home la coz andrew's house printer running out of ink
and thus wei lin followed me...making her the 3rd person tt i know to visit my house
and i cant believe tt she said i looked cutest when i was young when she saw my family portrait...tts true but i still am ok...lolz
yea so submitted it to ms koh at 4 plus
after which a grp of us went for dinner at pastamania
tonight i must agree was fun
esp at toys'r'us where most of them acted like big kids...playing with toddler toys

haiz...but this thought keep popping into my head recently...
will we ever to be in the same class...as 305?
i felt very upset upon hearing tt ppl would not be able to join us on the same journey next year
esp hui min
here's a shoutout for u if u ever see this... u'll never be forgotten for u have left us with wonderful memories. work hard towards the future and dun forget tt we are always here for u!
cant help but feel like crying now...

written report...

2007-10-19T02:40:00.000+08:00

havent been blogging for the last 2 weeks

been so busy with the project work wr ever since promos ended...

tomorrow marks the day where we all dun have to work on it any more...

finally

wr can realli make one go crazy...staying up late till 1 2 am juz to do it

after which next day get it commented and work on it again

but over here, i would realli like to thank our pw and gp cher, ms sophia koh.

she has been putting a lot of effort helping all of us in every way she can to help us unlock the potential of our wr's.

she has to look thru 6 wr's, which is definitely a very heavy workload.

there's juz so much abt her tt its juz so diff to express it in words...

or maybe its juz becoz my command of english language is juz too lousy

and for this wr too...my grp realli has to thank my younger bro

without him, we would never have came out with such wonderful illustrations...like this one

well next up is oral presentation...chiong ar...

Army Museum of Singapore

2007-10-06T19:22:00.000+08:00

today went to the army museum

it was worth the trip

the army museum of singapore rocks man

i'll let the pictures do the talking...

the singapore discovery centre

our friendly guide here...lolz though he is literally a poster boy

an overview of the exhibitions...

look out...artillery on the way! BOOM!

trying to man this big guy...

look! its titanic? ok maybe not...

make way...medics on the way!!!! (darn the door wont open)

my bro jumping off the 3 tonner i guess...

fire ahoy...this is the recoiless rifle

but theres some prob with it so they dun use liao

another light weight vehicle

actually this are just some of the exhibitions outside

in the museum itself...there are various shows of wat our army is like

with cool effects too

theres gallery of the 1st to the 3rd gen army

even cooler a booth for u to try out the m16 rifle and the latest SAR21

though i guess u can onli try it once haha

its a place where u cant miss out...esp where admission is free till end of this year...

oh yea..there's also a mini standard obstacle course...

its quite a daunting task for me now

realised its not as easy as it seems

today's trip made me eager abt my ns next time

1 week after...

2007-10-03T18:46:00.001+08:00

ok it has been about a week after promos had ended...

devastating

the horror of retaining...

my mind had been clouded by it since it ended...

nevertheless the results are not out yet

so play all i can and u guys should do the same too...

oh yea bought a new pair of shoes during children's day 1st oct

haha my children's day present lolz

bought my shoes from star three sixty by asics...

the olive green colour with yellow and red stripes

yea...striking one thing off my wishlist...

but i still have so many things i want...

a $60.10 adidas 3/4 pants

a $59 Topman jacket

a $39 polo t from dunno wat brand...

and many many more...

argh...and i believe i wont be able to get those once my results are out

i think my fate is so sealed...

retain is the word...

or maybe a miracle will happen--->hopefully

1 week

2007-09-16T21:45:00.000+08:00

a week is left b4 the start of promos
dun feel up to it yet
nothing's being internalised into my brain...
how i wished mine was like a sponge...
and at the right moment to squeeze all the contents out
it juz doesnt seem right these few days...
nothing's going my way
to be promoted to j2...seems like an tall order
for there is so much content regurgitate and apply
it aint easy...

but i do know
it aint over till its over
so i wont give up for there is something worth to prove
all e best to all of u
together we strive haha

retro

2007-08-29T21:32:00.000+08:00

today was a field day...spent half in school and half at bugis, searching high and low for retro stuff
the retro stuff is for "be yourself day" in conjunction with teacher's day. damn...did u realise how difficult it was to actually find retro stuff for guys?
everywhere u turn in bugis street, there will always be retro stuff
but onli for the gals
so me jeremy dickson andrew and crsytal went around bugis street for abt 3-4 hours, onli ending up buying a 10 bucks suspenders
coz we intend to wear wat we have at home with an inclination towards retro
so i reached home like abt 8.30?
and there's so much work to do
also i met megan at tampines interchange
they were also shopping for retro but they did their work somehow in between too?
they realli know how to make good use of time haha...not like the group of us searching high and low

and crystal has a random impression of my blog...

there's so much to complete now
math gp assignment
bio tys qn
arenes tut
and many more...

but i dun regret going out haha
maybe i will when i get scoldings from the various teachers...
so ciao rushing off to do them

a journey that will determine...

2007-08-14T18:46:00.000+08:00

promos coming...in less than 6 weeks
must keep up with the pace...
study man
no more nonsense
my mind has to get rid of all distractions including blogs
and off i am on my journey
to whether i am able to climb to the next level
difficult it may seem
but hardwork always pays off...doesn't it?
and do the best one can
ciao...it will be 7 weeks later...
b4 this blog wakes from its coma...

my friend...

2007-08-02T09:13:00.000+08:00

sianz...i didnt go to school today coz i am sick
missing so many things...some more next week tests all coming up...die...
on a lighter note, i decided to thank a person who has made my life entirely different in my past 4 years of secondary school life, now, formally and i hope u see this lolz.

Derron Tan Wei Sheng
Though we were from the same primary school too, we never really knew or met each other. However, fate brought us to get to know each other...and we forged strong bonds...along with other great frenz...
i still remembered when we were sec 1s, u reminded me to collect the council application form for which i had forgotten. i wouldnt be where i was without this

and very soon we were sec 2s, where pw revovles round our lives for about half a year.
and i still remembered very clearly this was the time u excelled academically. u questioned the teachers, not caring whether or not it is a nonsensical one
u brightened up the days during those dull and boring lessons

in sec 3 we were at the prime of the four years we spent in TK
Both u and i were appointed as office-bearers of the student council
but tt was the time, where our friendship was tested i guess?
we had disagreements regarding council, pw...
but i think i realli forgot abt those little arguements we had
nevertheless...we were all heading the same directions...like how we won the merit award in the bio tech fair 2005 with our research on eutrophication and our cabomba version EX1.0.5
haha and i can still imagine u now reciting the whole definition of eutrophication to mdm rubina...with all the actions

the last year in TK...it was like...all the wildness in us was unleashed...
remembered how we first got to play dota?
the first time going to a lan shop...
codenamed physics tuition lolz
and after which there was hero online...though u didnt realli played as much as me and LH did...but i was so amazed tt u juz started playing again like 3 days ago

i am glad tt u were there during those 4 years of my life...
there are of course more tt happened during those 4 years
but no matter...nothing can express my graditude to u...

Even though we've changed and we're all finding our own place in the world, we all know that when the tears fall or the smile spreads across our face, we'll come to each other because no matter where this crazy world takes us, nothing will ever change so much to the point where we're not all still friends.

and thanks for the call last night...i really needed a break from the stress of mugging
if u ever see this... i think u will see this haha
anyway cya on national day...

final call

2007-07-14T18:44:00.000+08:00

this is the final call b4 promos

for those who have done badly for mid years like me

this is e message!

aniwae this pic is done by my younger bro for his project i guess...

juz koped from him to use it as a reminder to myself and others who realli want to help themselves

work hard and strive for excellence...

dun think will be blogging any time soon

maybe fornightly i guess

there is no time to waste

the start of the end(promos la) is coming nearer by the day

think 10 weeks is all i left

change over!

2007-07-04T22:28:00.001+08:00

ok i made up my mind
i am officially going to be serious
serious on the outlook of life along the hard fact tt life's like tt
u reap what u sow
i have wasted too much time
this is the prime of my youth and i have the responsibility to work hard esp towards my goal
slack...gonna be out of my dictionary for these remaining months and years
the proper word will be a rest
everyone's trying their best out there edging each other for highest honours
while here i am juz seeing the show watching them from the back view!
its time to take the wheel
its not too late now
though the saying its never too late, i think it would be too late when promos are here
i dun want to be the one regretting how i have not studied and juz playing my way thru year 1
it may seem that if i put in effort now, others may find it to be a waste of time and complete stupidity to do tt
but nevertheless i would know i tried
u cant please everyone in the world
others may be having fun but then there will always be consequences
maybe not for some of them
but the real competitior is myself
call me names whatever...
so what if i face criticism?
how others percieve is not impt
the impt one is oneself
looking into the reflection i have let down myself too many times
the results of the past doesnt matter now
it is the present and the future
and this will be a reminder to me

and derron told me a very saddening news of one of my acquaintance coz i didnt realli know tt person well
tt person was so well and energetic when i last saw
now contracted some illness which is like making tt someone's life so unbearable and there is little hope of recovery?
life's juz so fragile...

thus the furthur jolt me back to reality
life is cruel but it is meant to be for we have to go thru setbacks in order to know ourselves better
my future will onli be in my hands not controlled by others
for i determine wat i want to be
every choice has its consequences
and i have a choice this time round
its rite in front of me
its a matter of whether i have to courage to pick the right choice and give up my other priorities
and i have made mine now todae 4 july at 10.50 pm

chalet and TRANSFORMERS!!!

2007-07-03T21:55:00.000+08:00

ok juz came back from chalet/movie
super shag now
yesterday was start of the chalet
had bbq and such...
well tts basically what u do in chalet gatherings rite?
whoa but damn sad sia first day the number of ppl tt turned up was a tad lesser than expected=less fun and crap
but all the guys turned up
and had great time dicussing how to "scare" the girls in the middle of the nite
but they were so nonchalant abt it coz i think they quite tired lol
but song leng managed to scare wei lin
tt expression was priceless haha
then slept abt 4 am plus
had onli abt 4 hours slp then go swimming pool play pool then swimming pool again
coz was waiting for hakim's mother tongue oral to end so tt we can go watch transformers together
sadly onli song leng hakim and i havent watched yet so the rest went ahead to do other things while we went to watch
it was da blast man the movie
loved it
bumblebee and starscream were so cool man
starscream reminds me of the cnc generals day... miss them sia
air force general lol

sadly i wont be able to join them to go changi v and old changi hospital tonight...
it not a matter of choice in this case
realli wanted to go!!!
cant wait to hear what "amazing" discoveries they will find...

and havent started on e learning...how?
too bad lor tomolo see how lol